Who knew losing my keys could create a tangle of self hatred, doubt and irritability? I didn’t until I couldn’t find my keys after a week of searching. Mind you, any garment with pockets is now clean, folded tidily and in it’s right place. Thankfully, this video found me, via http://www.the2012 scenario. I choose to love myself in the midst of my imperfections. I choose to love the world in the midst of uncertainty. I choose love.
I feel as if I have just been “dipped in beauty”. I’ve just listened to Joanna Macy being interviewed by Krista Tippett. Joanna Macy weaves together her lifelong passion for the earth and her translations of Rilke. I am in love. It was 55 minutes well spent.
“Joanna Macy is a philosopher of ecology, a Buddhist scholar, and an exquisite translator of the poetry of Rainer Maria Rilke. We take that poetry as a lens on her wisdom on spiritual life and its relevance for the political and ecological dramas of our time.”
Where is the place that I put my sorrow?
It no longer ebbs and flows with the moon or blood, but rises unbidden
In the early morning.
It caught me unaware as I walked out of a dream.
There it was.
A gossamer woven through my connective tissue
Holding, unyielding, unbidden, unseen until
I called upon compassion, counted the flowers of my blessings
The sorrow rose,
To be held.
Bathed in love, the threads loosen, open, dissolve
Into the one heart.
image ©2012 Occupy Your Heart
I woke up this morning feeling frustrated and discombobulated after a string of interwoven dreams. Dreams that involved the main unresolved issues in my life, the knots that are reluctant to unravel. At the end of the dream, the main dream character, a woman, looked at me and said, “It is all right here, it is all right here.”
And, it is all right here. In both meaning of the phrase. I watch the ferns unravel, in their own time, in their own way. Their beauty and grace is stunning. It is all right here. All I need is right here. Fear is here, frustration is here, impatience is here and love is here. Right here, right now. Along with her sisters grace and hope and beauty. It is truly all right here.
I’ve been feeling waves of sadness lately, along with the grittiness of irritability. I also seem to have misplaced what little patience I had been nurturing over the past few years.
I wonder my experience is part of it is the collective sadness that comes with living in a world that doesn’t value the uniqueness of each being, that doesn’t value and honour the beautiful blue-green planet we call home, Pacha Mama.
The inner tension between hope and despair is increasing. At times I look out at our world and see all the wonderful acts of kindness, the indications of economic change, the growth in the local food economy and my heart delights. Other days I hear the rhetoric of our politicians saying how we need to fast track approval processes for resource extraction and I burst into tears, recognizing the model that sees the earth as a commodity to be sold, regardless of the larger impacts on communities, the ecosystem and our souls.
Perhaps it is simply part of the process of evolution – we need to experience the polarization of human consciousness between those who would imprison and those who would free the human spirit.
I’ve been using this beautiful Bell Chant from Buddhist teacher Thich Naht Hahn and Brother Phap Niem to soothe my soul and heart. To help me water the seeds of compassion, within and without.
I’m curious, are you feeling this tension? If so, how are you meeting it?
This afternoon, anger washed over me, and it has been seeping through my cells as I read about our government’s latest decisions to weaken the Federal Environmental Assessment Act as well as the Fisheries Act. (The Fisheries Act, states very clearly that “no person shall carry out any work or undertaking that results in the harmful alteration, disruption or destruction of fish habitat.” But the Conservataive government wants to change the Act to make it legal to destroy waterways provided that it does not “result in an adverse effect on a fish of economic, cultural or ecological value.” Arghhh…..
My heart is breaking.
Thankfully, I came across this video, which aims ” to help its audience relax, engaging the sacred, feel the power of the Occupy Movement, and release that which no longer serves, clearing an inner path to envision and create an inclusive, equitable, and peaceful world.”
Watching and meditating on the video, I am reminded that I can use this pain, this anger, this deep hurt, as an opportunity to dive into love, to dive into the truth. I am called to strengthen my practice, to stand with and for life, to remember that nothing, absolutely nothing is what it seems.
Spring is here, consciousness is rising – I wonder what flowers will blossom.
My body is till buzzing from watching this video posted by an Israeli couple. In it Ronny Endry says:
“To the Iranian people, To all the fathers, mothers, children, brothers and sisters, For there to be a war between us, first we must be afraid of each other, we must hate. I’m not afraid of you, I don’t hate you. I don t even know you. No Iranian ever did me no harm.”
This call for peace has initiated conversations between Israelis and Iranians, and sparked support from around the world. It has sparked hope in my heart and fire in my soul.
(An image from a poster on the ‘Israel Loves Iran’ Pushpin Mehina Face book page.)
Image Courtesy: NASA / Goddard Space Flight Center
The Buddhist Monk, Thich Naht Hahn is one of my sources of wisdom. In a recent article in The Guardian he articulates the need, especially at this moment in our evolution, to step out duality into unity consciousness with our relationship to this beautiful blue jewel of a planet that we live on. Earth I Am, Water I Am, Air I Am, Fire I Am. “Change is possible only if there is a recognition that people and planet are ultimately one and the same.“You carry Mother Earth within you,” says Thay. “She is not outside of you. Mother Earth is not just your environment.“In that insight of inter-being, it is possible to have real communication with the Earth, which is the highest form of prayer. In that kind of relationship you have enough love, strength and awakening in order to change your life.“Changing is not just changing the things outside of us. First of all we need the right view that transcends all notions including of being and non-being, creator and creature, mind and spirit. That kind of insight is crucial for transformation and healing.“Fear, separation, hate and anger come from the wrong view that you and the earth are two separate entities, the Earth is only the environment. You are in the centre and you want to do something for the Earth in order for you to survive. That is a dualistic way of seeing.“So to breathe in and be aware of your body and look deeply into it and realize you are the Earth and your consciousness is also the consciousness of the earth. Not to cut the tree not to pollute the water, that is not enough.” More: http://www.guardian.co.uk/sustainable-business/zen-thich-naht-hanh-buddhidm-business-values
“Love is the felt experience of connection to another being. An economist says ‘more for you is less for me.’ But the lover knows that more of you is more for me too. If you love somebody their happiness is your happiness. Their pain is your pain. Your sense of self expands to include other beings. This shift of consciousness is universal in everybody, 99% and 1%.” ~ Charles Eisenstein
Here is a taste of the upcoming documentary Occupy Love, by Velcro Ripper. It is billed as a film that captures the global (r)evolution of compassion in action.
Points that touched me:
- There is no other.
- The 1% are suffering as much as the 99%.
- We don’t yet have the language for what we sense, for what we want to create, and as a results, making explicit demands takes the heart out of the movement.
- The revolution is love.
The revolution is love, the vision a felt experience, a longing, a yearning. It is as though I am remembering the future, moment by moment.