It’s all right here

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I woke up this morning feeling frustrated and discombobulated after a string of interwoven dreams. Dreams that involved the main unresolved issues in my life, the knots that are reluctant to unravel. At the end of the dream, the main dream character, a woman, looked at me and said, “It is all right here, it is all right here.”

And, it is all right here. In both meaning of the phrase. I watch the ferns unravel, in their own time, in their own way. Their beauty and grace is stunning. It is all right here. All I need is right here. Fear is here, frustration is here, impatience is here and love is here. Right here, right now. Along with her sisters grace and hope and beauty. It is truly all right here.

 

The New Economy Movement

Since, I’ve started to feel into the meaning of money and dreaming of different way of relating to money, I’ve been led to some very informative and inspiring articles. Here’s one I found today on The 2012 Scenario.

Activists, theorists, organizations and ordinary citizens are rebuilding the American political-economic system from the ground up

by Gar Alperovitz, Alternet, May 22, 2012

Just beneath the surface of traditional media attention, something vital has been gathering force and is about to explode into public consciousness. The “New Economy Movement” is a far-ranging coming together of organizations, projects, activists, theorists and ordinary citizens committed to rebuilding the American political-economic system from the ground up.

The broad goal is democratized ownership of the economy for the “99 percent” in an ecologically sustainable and participatory community-building fashion. The name of the game is practical work in the here and now—and a hands-on process that is also informed by big picture theory and in-depth knowledge.

Read more: http://www.commondreams.org/view/2012/05/22-2

Questions of Money and Sacred Economics

Rainer Maria Rilke – Live the Questions Now

…I would like to beg you … to have patience with everything unresolved in your heart and to try to love the questions themselves as if they were locked rooms or books written in a very foreign language. Don’t search for the answers, which could not be given to you now, because you would not be able to live them. And the point is to live everything. Live the questions now. Perhaps then, someday far in the future, you will gradually, without even noticing it, live your way into the answer.

Where to start? That is what I’ve been asking myself this past few weeks as I have been deepening my exploration of my relationship with money. I am so, so tired of scarcity thinking and feeling. I have an abundance of community, connection and creativity. How can it get any better than this? By having a more compassionate, loving, creative, abundant, even beautiful realtionship with money. By loosening the tangles and knots I have around money. Money feels like a relationship I just don’t get. I don’t get how a person has to “earn a living”. What is that about? Or the “cost of living”. Is that crazy or what. To think that as amazing beings of light we need to earn a living? Who thought that up?

For the next while, however long my soul calls me to delve into the subject, I will be exploring and living the question of money on this blog. Questions such as:

What else is possible? (For exampleRather than a money tangle, can I have a money river?)

How can I create a more loving, abundant, generative relationship with money?

If I see all the world as sacred, how can I create a sacred relationship with money?

How can I see money as something beautiful and amazing?

My guide for this journey is the book Sacred Economics, Money, Gift and Society in the Age of Transition by Charles Eisenstein. The book is organized in three sections:

  • The Economics of Separation
  • The Economics of Reunion
  • Living the New Economy

I recognized right away that the (increasing) tension I feel around money is that while I am practicing living in a world shaped by unity consciousness, cooperation,  connection, compassion and creativity our entire economic system is designed to foster competition and separation. No wonder I am in such a tangled knot. No wonder I just don’t “get” money at a heart level.

Come, join me on this journey of discover, of imagining a new economy, imaging a joyful relationship with money, of imagining a world where there is more than enough for everyone. It is spring, come, plant the seeds of a new reality and water those seeds with questions.

Interest Free Debt? Why not.

I’ve been exploring my beliefs about money, abundance and scarcity. Money, and the lack of it, triggers a great deal of anxiety in me. I’ve got good idea of the core beliefs I have about money…I can either have my health, friendships, community, or I can have work and have money, there is only so much to go around, money can separate me from other people, etc.

Now, I’ve started exploring the cultural and collective institutions that have contributed to my experience and beliefs. And one of them is how the government spends money, takes on debt, etc. The main messages I am getting from our governments are that there is only so much to go around, that cuts are needed to ensure future prosperity. Yet, I am bothered by that.My reality is that there is plenty to go around, we can live in a both/and world.  So, I started poking around and found this video. It is  the most succinct description of the collusion between banks and governments to keep us in a scarcity mind set. Twelve-year-old Victoria Grant (Cambridge, Ontario), gave this lecture at a recent Public Banking Institute conference in Philadelphia.

I have learnt that prior to 1974, all three levels of government could borrow money from the Bank of Canada at zero interest. The government could use the  interest free loans  “human capital” expenditures (education health, other social services) and / or infrastructure expenditures.  (For more details http://actionparty.ca/news/monetary-reform/canada-debt-free-is-it-possible-/)

Interest charges on Canada’s public debt – money borrowed by the federal government over the years and not yet repaid – cost $30.9 billion. That’s about 11 cents of every tax dollar spent. (Source Department of Finance Canada 2011). More of our federal income is spent on the debt than on health transfers to the province. How crazy is that?

A huge change can be make to the Canadian financial landscape without a wholesale change of legislation and regulation. How cool is that?

The Pain of Power or The Power of Feelings

It gives me great hope to see an article on the power of feeling your feelings in  the Harvard Business Review. Clearly, leaders are human beings and human beings cope with feelings in different ways. Much of the suffering the the world is because we have never found a way to make peace with old hurts and wounds.

Peter Bregman, May 07, 2012 writes Most leadership trainings are about ideas, techniques, theories, and methodologies. But the workshop I took this week was designed for the heart, not the head. It was about feeling deeply the emotions we spend our lives avoiding, like the pain of failure and loss.

This act of diving deeply into the feelings we avoid, the feelings we don’t necessarily even know we have, is, I have come to believe, our only hope of breaking our link in the chain of hurt, suffering, and ineffectiveness.

That’s a leadership issue. Because every leader is a human being. And when we avoid feeling the suffering we naturally experience as human beings, we perpetuate it and act against our best interests in our relationships with our colleagues and the people we manage, as well as with our families.” Read more: http://www.dailygood.org/view.php?sid=229

Bursting Forth

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Stumbled upon this poppy bursting into new life in the corner of my garden. What delight. The sheer beauty of the life force breaking free took my breath away. I too, feel like I am breaking open. Into what or who, I am not sure. Something is shifting. The tides have changed. Not just within me, but on the planet. My heart is singing.

You are the Light of the World

A poem by Paul Ferrini struck home after a challenging day yesterday where I was dancing with anger and resentment. My body wanted to hold on to an old pattern which revealed itself in muscle tension, headache and a sore back. Conversation, deep listening and tears revealed the truth of the situation. Too often I rush into support others while neglecting my own needs. I do have a deep, heart-felt desire to help others. But my body was telling me to stop, look inside, find my light and shine it on myself. Later, while falling asleep, something shifted. Deep relief as I found myself holding myself with love and tenderness. I am worthy of support. My needs are important. And not only that, but I found a place inside that said, “life takes great delight in meeting your needs; life is longing to support you. Take the time to listen and rejoice.”,

Looking after our own needs can be so difficult, but it is vital not just to our own health, but to the health of our society and our world. Please, take the time to nourish and support yourself. Then, offer your light from the fullness of your being.

You are the light of the world,
but you do not know it
because you have not looked deeply enough into your own heart.
Take a moment to look.
Take a moment to find the light
that dances in dark night within.
See those deep colors penetrating the clouds, the hands of light reaching to the horizon.  Until you can see the light in yourself
you cannot bring it to the world.